To You, With Love

We met when we were young,

That's when our friendship, our story sprung.

We grew closer and closer everyday,

You were really fun to talk to, that i would say.

You made the first call, and we talked through the night,

It was then I first told myself to not let you out of my sight.

I started to have a crush on you, though it was just for a short while,

I didn't know that it went way ahead to the future to wait, far from me for miles and miles.

Our journey came to a brief halt at one point,

But it continued on as our roads met again and joined.

From then on we were always side by side on the same path,

No matter who or what, they had be careful of our wrath.

We never did hesitate when it came to our friendship,

Until the day arrived for me to give her more than just a mere tip.

A scar on my hand, a message in her inbox and a text chill,

That is what it took for me to let it all out and just spill.

From the signs I got, I never expected to have to bare with pain,

But alas, at the end of the day I found out that my efforts were in vain.

For long I went on not receiving your love,

But at least we were happy, and I could still hear you laugh.

Until there came a day where it was all too much,

For me to carry on my shoulders and be baffled such.

I never regretted not letting you know about the burden I had,

For besides not knowing how to approach, I couldn't bare to see you sad.

Then I decided, that you didn't really need me,

So I left without notice so that you wouldn't see.

It took all my strength at courage to leave,

For more pain and torture was all I received.

Everything you did, be it good or bad,

You may not know this but I knew everything, this is a fact.

A lot of things you thought you could keep away from my knowledge,

But I still knew it all, and it tortured and surrounded me like i was in a cage.

Even if we were to meet up just for awhile,

The fire would again start burning, and i've to leave again for miles and miles.

Until one day, when you reached me, during you were the one i truly missed,

I just had to see you, even just for a moment, I just couldn't resist.

Who would've known that that would be the last,

And I would never again run because it's all in the past.

I still required you about the things that you've done,

Of course you wouldn't admit, and you thought you could run.

I decided to just keep it in, until the time is right,

I've done it before, I'll do it again, till the last bit of my might.

After four years of waiting, the pain is gone and uplifted from my chest,

Finally we're together, and now you've become my one and only princess.

I really do love you with all my heart,

No matter what happens, only death could take it apart.

You're the only one that makes my heart melt and soft,

This I dedicate to you sincerely from me with much love.

Love,

Qarper

<3

Wondering the Wonders of Pondering

  Hey peeps,been a while huh? Well,this time I'm back with a few questions for you to ponder on. Firstly, let's talk about love. I believe I've asked this question in one of my entry before, 'What is love to you'?

  What does it take for you to fall in love for someone? Is it their smile? Their tone of voice? How they touch you? Their attitude? How they treat you? What? Will there actually be a day where the answer for this question can be found? I wonder... How would you know that you've already found 'the one'? What if he/she is 'the one' for you but it's not actually a mutual feeling? Can we still call that particular someone 'our one' or is it just us being in our own world believing only what we want to just so our hearts won't get torn apart? I mean,there is a saying that goes like this,"It takes two to tango", right? So, what exactly is love? Ponder on this for as long as you can and if you can find an answer for it, I'll respect you till death and you'd definitely be very rich for helping others in this one particular common yet foreign to the mind subject.

  Next, what about faith? There are more than one meaning for this word. First, we'll talk about the meaning of faith that talks about your beliefs in something or someone. Do you really need it in your life? Well, from my point of view, we kinda need it. Otherwise, we won't even have faith in ourselves to do anything. You nee to have faith in order for oneself or another person to have at least the slightest bit of foundation of motivation. Even just by knowing that other people have faith in you helps motivate us do something or get something done. 

  Now,what about when people say, or rather ask, "Would you be faithful to me till the end?" You see, that's a different story. It may have a LITTLE similarities but it's not exactly the same. Being faithful to one's partner is a crucial thing in order to keep peace in the relationship. I mean, what's the point of being in one if you're still gonna go find other guys/girls to have fun with? And by having fun, I mean it in every way there is be it some or all the definition towards it. So, what is being faithful then if this still happens to a lot of lovely couples out there? Maybe, the definition and meaning of faithful is as easy as '1,2,3'. The only thing making it complex is the people who doesn't appreciate their partners and misuse the word faithful by turning it into UNfaithful, don't you think? 

  Then, there's trust. What is that? Why is it so easy to break,crush and destroy trust? Yet, building or rebuilding demolished trust takes time? It's like, a structure of a building. It may have a strong foundation but once hit by the giant ball, it'll get destroyed. And to rebuild it, it would take time. Even years maybe. Why must human feelings be complex? (-_-')

  So,how bout it? Would you even dare to ponder on these things after this? Or would you rather just leave it be until the time comes for you to think about it? I leave it to you, whatever you think that suits you. There already are enough problems in your heads so don't let these set of questions intoxicate your minds further. 

  Have fun peeps, may you enjoy using your minds for whatever it is you guys do... 

=)

Yours truly,

Qarper

=D

  

Slowly

Something's been eating me up on the inside,

I dunno what it is but it's something I'm afraid I can no longer hide.

Started from the deepest depths of my heart,

Now it's eating through my whole body,and the impact is hard.

What if it hurts so much that i can no longer lie?

Does that mean that the time has come for 'me to die'?

What if the time comes when this body can no longer survive?

Would i be strong enough to at least have my soul to continue on with life?

What is this foreign sound that keeps playing in my ears?

It sounds so sad that it could break me down to tears.

Where has the happy,cheerful music from my life gone to?

Is there anything,anything at all left for me to do?

Here I'll say I'll keep on trying,

Eventhough I can feel myself tearing apart and dying.

I'll try my best not to give up and do what I have to do,

So that when my time is up,I would've at least left a small impact on you.

Can't say i won't regret with my choice of actions,

But I've to fight,no matter how much it burns.

I'll try my very best to make sure that you would see,

No matter what's in store for me,no matter what's my destiny.

So wish me luck in my conquest,

And hope that in a state of peace is where I'll finally rest.

Again I'll say that no matter how hard is the test,

I promise you that I'll give my all,I'll try my best.

I'll make sure that I'll be the one in triumph,I say this solemnly,

Even if it means I'll get it done,slowly...

Much love and hope,

Qarper

=)