Crawling In My Skin

  This feeling I've been feeling,this thing inside me. It's getting worse day by day. I've no idea what to do to make things better or get rid of this feeling. I'd sleep late because of it. I'd not get enough sleep because of it. A lot is being effected because of it.

  What is it? What is this thing crawling in my skin? Is it disposable? Is it possible to get rid of it? If so,how? What am I to do? Tell me,please. I'm sick of feeling like this. It used to be once in a blue moon. But now,it's getting more frequent. Day in day out.

  It's as if a shadow has been casted over me under a dark cloud that follows me everywhere I go. Stop bothering me,stop screwing around with my life! Help!

Need help,

Qarper

Unsure

  There's this feeling that I've been feeling inside,but very unsure of what it really is. It started off as something from deep within. As days passes by,it kept on reaching to get to the surface. It's like peering through the deepest depths of the sea. Even when something is coming up to the surface,you wouldn't know on whether it's something safe or dangerous for you. Until it's too late.

  What is it? Is it loneliness? Could it be emptiness? Sadness maybe? Or is it just something that I should just brush off? I don't know. I wish I do so that I don't have to face this day in,day out! It's killing me from within,very slowly. Can't quite talk it out cause I don't know who exactly to talk to about this feeling and even if I do,I don't know how to explain this foreign feeling. 

  I've felt this way a couple of times before but I can't really relate it to the previous ones. What is this? Get it outta me! Just hope that by writing something I'd feel at least a little better. Hope this works. Otherwise I'd surely crack by midnight. Just like a werewolf,just waiting for it's turn to take over the body,soul and mind of the 'master'.

Unsure Soul,

Qarper

Love..?

  What is it really? Is it really just a feeling? Or is it something much more complex than what people think they know? Majority say that falling in love is a wonderful feeling. Some say that love sucks and love is for suckers. There are even people who call themselves Love Doctors. If they were to be asked a question such as,"what is love?" or "how do you know when you're in love?",would they actually be able to give a straight answer?

  Noone could ever define what love is. Actually,come to think of it,we can't really say that love is undefined. Everyone has their own definition,belief and theory about what love is. Is it really JUST a feeling? If so,than the phrase we humans use that is "I'll love you forever,until the day i die" would just be a false,empty phrase they give to their partners. 

  Just like when you FEEL hungry,you eat something,then you won't FEEL it anymore. So that means,something is bound to happen for you to easily not love anymore if it's JUST a FEELING. Love would NOT be the reason on why you get married and stay with one person for the rest of your lives.

  No,from what I've seen and heard from people,love is much more complex than just a FEELING. I myself am not sure of what love really is or how to define it. Maybe,love is something noone could ever truly understand. But it's just there. Complicated much huh? Yeah,i guess that's just something you have to go through in life. One of the wonders you experience on the road you call life.

  By the end of the day,it's you who makes the decision. It's you who'll be the one deciding on whether or not to take a ride on the love boat,proceed to the ups and downs of the roller coaster,enjoy and take everything you learn as experience and give it a try. That's why the definition is different and depends on each and every single individual. 

  You should not say love sucks or love is the best. You should not try and discourage your friends to love because doesn't mean you went through a rough time,they would end up like that as well. No love story is the same,be it tragic or breath takingly beautiful.

Just remember this quote that I'd learned from a very close person in my life. "Love,can be as beautiful as Heaven. But it could also hurt like Hell."

  So go on,take a leap of faith and give it a go. If it ends in a shipwreck,than it wasn't meant to be. Find another one to experience the ride with. You wouldn't know if you don't try right? Then you'll have your own definition and experience to answer when give such questions. Hope you'll have a great ride on you adventure and hope that you won't screw it up.

Sincerely,

Qarper 

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