The Month of December

  Greeting peeps! I mentioned in my previous post, that I'd try to not post once a month. Well, in a way I didn't. The last post was in October, and now, it's December. Now it's basically once in TWO months. Shame on me. 

  Anyways, things are almost still the same. Still juggling the three (work, studies and life) around. I've got four more assignments to go, due in about 2 weeks. Feeling the pressure now. I never thought that I'd actually make an effort this time. I'm taking it more seriously than before. Not good enough, but hey, at least I'm going somewhere. At least I'm on the right track. 

  I've tried to change myself recently. In as many ways as I can, for the better. But it seems that, the more I try, the more reasons people give me not to change. I wouldn't mind much if it's coming from people that I couldn't really care less about, but this is mostly coming from the people close to me. I don't know, sometimes it seems like they're on my side, sometimes it seems as if they're sole purpose of life is to bring me down, lower than the ground. Maybe it's their way of telling/teaching me that I need to buck up on my life and be stronger. If I can't survive what they give me, what makes me think I can survive the world out there, who wouldn't even think twice about how it would impact my life. 

  I'll agree, it has made me stronger in certain ways. I noticed that I've changed a bit, for the better of course, due to what has been thrown at me. I guess I have to actually thank them for this, regardless of whether it's on purpose or not. 

  What I've learned so far, after starting my journey into the real world, you can depend on others, especially those closest to you. What you can't do is to depend on them a 100%. You have to be ready, everytime, and be prepared to be let down by them. You'll never know what happens. But at least, if you have this kind of mind set, you'd be able to go through it without a problem. Just look up, suck it all up and move on with life. It's not like they pierced through you with a real knife or sword or anything. "Sticks and stones may break my bones, but words will never kill me." Try to embed that into your brain, and with god's will, you'd be able to do just fine in life. 

  Alright, I guess I should better be heading back to my assignments now. I'll try (again) to post more often than before. Hope all is well with all of you. Till next time.

Lots of Love,
Qarper
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