Reminisence

   A trip down memory lane. That's what had happened when I'd have this site opened again. It suddenly popped into my head I was thinking about improving my writing and language. Where could I go to practice, publish something, or even improve my typing skills. I was somehow diverted back to this site which I've not opened for years!

   The last time I was here, my status on papers were still "Single". I now not only fill in the section for "Spouse", but also "Children". Yes, I'm now a happy husband to a lovely and supporting wife, and also a proud father to a very intelligent 9 month old girl who mirrors most of how my wife is, which is a good thing, mind you. 

   Thinking back, like all relationships I'm sure, there were ups and downs. But we made it to this stage. Still trying to "get there", but definitely on the right tracks now. You see, people always ask me, "How does it feel like getting married? Are there any differences from before and after marriage? How would you know if that person is the one for you?" At first, I was somewhat clueless on how to answer these questions. The words were never there for me to explain to them as I still consider myself as a "newbie" in this department.

   As time passed, I learn slowly, on how to answer those questions properly, if not correctly. How does it feel? Awesome. You can't just look at one bad moment, or even one good moment, and focus on it. It must be seen from a holistic point of view. Ups and downs are normal, and expected in all relationships. How you handle it is what matters. "It takes two to tango" they say. As a whole, I'd say my journey so far is great! It's taught me countless various things.

   Regarding the questions, sadly, the only way to know if that person is THE one for you or not, only you can answer. It varies from people. Many factors are to be weighed on to determine your compatibility. Best example, my wife and I. We are the exact opposite of each other in almost everything! But, that is what pulls us closer together. Like Ying and Yang, North and South, Bread and Butter; you get the drill. 

   How I realised this? "Dude, what you gonna tell her when you wanna go for you massage?" Just tell her I'm going for a massage, what's the big deal? Not like there's gonna be any hanky-panky. "Careful when you're checking out that chick, your wife might catch you." She was the one who pointed it out for me in the first place. Yeap, you read that correctly. "Doesn't she get jealous if you were to hang out with a female colleague or friend, vice versa?" Jealous, maybe, maybe not, most probably not. Be apparent about it, no point of hiding it, and have trust. 

   Basically, if you think that you've built a solid foundation, you're going in the right direction. The only things that could be the obstacles are those on each other's respective opinions, and trying to get each other to accept and respect that. Having said, I dare say that the both of us have matured a great deal since we first started dating.

   I've ranted for a while now, and pretty sure strayed away from my apparent topic. Let's see if this would finally be the time where I'd maintain writing as a regular thing. Might have to focus on certain topics only tho. Till then.

Always smile,

Qarper

Test Drive

Hey peeps! Been ages since I've blogged. Since ages since I even read another's blog post. Well, there's a whole lotta things to talk about since my last post (which I'm very sure was about a year ago.)

Unfortunately, this particular post is just for me to test this new app if it could actually post effectively and enable me to post on the go.

Till next time my lovelies,

Smile always,
Qarper
=D

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The Month of December

  Greeting peeps! I mentioned in my previous post, that I'd try to not post once a month. Well, in a way I didn't. The last post was in October, and now, it's December. Now it's basically once in TWO months. Shame on me. 

  Anyways, things are almost still the same. Still juggling the three (work, studies and life) around. I've got four more assignments to go, due in about 2 weeks. Feeling the pressure now. I never thought that I'd actually make an effort this time. I'm taking it more seriously than before. Not good enough, but hey, at least I'm going somewhere. At least I'm on the right track. 

  I've tried to change myself recently. In as many ways as I can, for the better. But it seems that, the more I try, the more reasons people give me not to change. I wouldn't mind much if it's coming from people that I couldn't really care less about, but this is mostly coming from the people close to me. I don't know, sometimes it seems like they're on my side, sometimes it seems as if they're sole purpose of life is to bring me down, lower than the ground. Maybe it's their way of telling/teaching me that I need to buck up on my life and be stronger. If I can't survive what they give me, what makes me think I can survive the world out there, who wouldn't even think twice about how it would impact my life. 

  I'll agree, it has made me stronger in certain ways. I noticed that I've changed a bit, for the better of course, due to what has been thrown at me. I guess I have to actually thank them for this, regardless of whether it's on purpose or not. 

  What I've learned so far, after starting my journey into the real world, you can depend on others, especially those closest to you. What you can't do is to depend on them a 100%. You have to be ready, everytime, and be prepared to be let down by them. You'll never know what happens. But at least, if you have this kind of mind set, you'd be able to go through it without a problem. Just look up, suck it all up and move on with life. It's not like they pierced through you with a real knife or sword or anything. "Sticks and stones may break my bones, but words will never kill me." Try to embed that into your brain, and with god's will, you'd be able to do just fine in life. 

  Alright, I guess I should better be heading back to my assignments now. I'll try (again) to post more often than before. Hope all is well with all of you. Till next time.

Lots of Love,
Qarper
=)

Random

Hey peeps,

  Just wanna update something since I'm already on here. The layout is way different than the last time I came on. Feels so foreign. Anyways, after checking my previous posts, I realised something. I've only been updating once a month now. I hope this would not go on as such. I've not much time in my hands anymore. I've got a job that requires me to have my own research done after work, and I've continued studying part time which I'd have assignments to take care of every week. 

  Classes would be on every Saturday. Except for last Saturday though, it was canceled last minute. We were all informed the night before. Not sure why. At least I have some time for a breather. Otherwise, it'd be my research after work, and right away followed by my assignments, repeatedly every day. 

  I plan to be done with the assignments from every class before the next class. That's why I have such schedule for myself. I just need to get myself more disciplined and everything would go according to plan. That's the worrying bit there actually. Well, at least it's going on well so far with me juggling work, studies and life all at the same time. 

  Just a reminder to myself, keep it up, get better and finish it all. A bright future awaits you if you don't screw anything up now. And to all those peeps out there, till next time, good luck and all the best for whatever it is you do. May you all succeed and achieve all you'd wanna achieve.

P.S- Good luck to all students taking PMR examinations this week! 

Best wishes and regards,
Qarper
=D

A Different Feeling

Feeling somewhat down, not myself, kinda different. Cause: unknown

This is really unfair. My heart is feeling rather under the weather, and it's not telling me why. The thing is, I knew this was gonna happen the second I got up this morning. I woke up in darkness, gloomy surrounding, like that off a sad scene from a movie. Or maybe even a scene from a movie from the dark ages, I'm not sure. What's sure is that this feeling is making me feel so restless, makes me feel like a time bomb. I hate that.

You see, i may be the type of person who has almost the same face for every expression, but that doesn't mean that I like being expressionless. I want explanation on this! Why can't I understand what's going on?!

Okay, I admit, this feeling is very familiar. I believe I've felt this before, but that was a long time ago. Plus, I don't really have a reason to feel this way now. That's the part that scares and bothers me right now.

I hope the day will go on normally. No or not much obstacles to g through, hard obstacles that has a huge connection to this feeling I mean.

So peeps, I'll be back later on I think. Till then, hope you'd all have a great day.

Much love,
Qarper

Hey peeps!


  Wow, this must've been the longest period of time I've stayed away from my blog page. A lot has happened, a lot have changed, a lot has passed and I've gone through and learned a lot of things in the past months that I've been away from my blog. Mostly, it's something to do with life, my life. Who's here to stay, who I can rely on, who's who and what's what. What should be done and what shouldn't. 


  I believe, the last time I updated my blog, it was before I'd started work. I started looking for jobs in january and had worked at 2 places since. One was a company where I had to do telesales, a business development company. 


  Business development is whereby the company would set up conferences, talks or seminars on ways to improve a particular department or position in an organisation. It's not a bad place to work in actually. You'd get to learn a lot about many companies. How they work, what they do, what a specific department does, gain sales experience and ways to talk/persuade people and many more. Yes, it may be hard at first but it basically needs you to improve on your personal and communications skills. After about 3-5 phone calls or so, you'll get the hang of it.


  Then, I joined the Customer Service line in a different company, which, I fell in love with. Not only the place and the people there, the job itself. I enjoyed helping the customers with the queries. The benefits and the environment there was wonderful. The work wasn't really stressful if you look at it in a positive way. The only time where you'd feel stressed or pressured is when you get a disputive customer. You can't really blame them for being so, I mean, if you had a problem with a certain product, I'm pretty sure you'd be pissed off as well right?


  Some things were unavoidable or unsolvable from my end which I had to escalate to another or relevant department to handle the case, others were alright. It was easy for you to earn extra money each month. You could either do over time, get compliments or even perfect attendance would be taken into account for your incentives. The pay was very good.


One important thing though, that I learned through this journey into the working world. If you're sic, not well or have a medical condition, please, and i emphasize, PLEASE make sure you're really medically fit for the job you choose or at least make sure you have a proper medication for what ever condition that you have. Taking too many medical leaves, be it paid, unpaid leave, and whether you're a permanent or contract employee, will jeopardize your career, especially if you're working in a call centre environment where time and progress is very essential and important for you to excel in the company or department.


  In the past, I used to think that working in a call centre or as a customer service consultant wasn't really a big thing. But now, after having experiencing it myself, it actually is. In fact, here in Malaysia, they're a growing career choice. Some place even requires you to have a diploma or degree to get into their CS department. The pay is good, a bundle of allowances and a whole lot of incentives to be collected. And if your communications skills are on par with their requirements, with a bit of patience, discipline and commitment, you'd climb up their corporate ladder in no time.


  I guess this time, I'll just stop here. A walk through, a glimpse of the working world and environment from my eyes. Hope there's some useful info for you peeps. Till next time, hope you guys all the best in life, no matter what you choose to do, may you do it at your best!


Best wishes, 
Qarper
=D

Just A Short One

No time, need to rush out. A lot of things to get done today heheh. Anyways, a lot's on my mind right now. I feel like things has changed. Things are being kept and done. What's going on? Why is it not like before where everything's shared? Oh well, that's life I guess. College can't be so perfect now can it?

Hope you guys are all well. Been a very long time since I updated my blog and this time it's a very short one. Next time I'll try to make a longer one. Take care peeps!

Sincerely,

Qarper

=)

Randomness

  Hello peeps! It's been a while huh? Sorry, been busy with college and stuff you call life huhuhu. Just a random though(or in this case, post). I've been thinking about a little bit of the future lately.

  What does it hold? What does it have in store for me? Will I be successful? Or at least, have a decent life? I'm pretty sure I have what it takes to survive the world but what IF I can't show my true 'powers'? As in, I don't know how or not confident enough?

  I've got another four years, give and take, for me to finish up my degree and get a job. Then what? How will I know that I'm all ready to take the real challenge of life? Well, a very wise man that I kinda sorta look up to once told me this. "You are too mature for your stage of life. You think like an adult, mature like an adult in most aspects of life, but you have to behave like a learning, studying, college going student."

  What he meant is that I've started thinking about marriage, work and saving up money for a wedding and my future. Where as what I should really concentrate on is my studies first. If I don't have that as a foundation in my life, then how the heck am I supposed to build my own 'house' in my life? Even the strongest and tallest of buildings have small but solid foundation underneath.

  So, as usual. Here's something you could all ponder about. Would those of us who has skills in study knowledge be more likely to survive or those of us who have more people skills and practical skills would?

Have fun pondering,

Sincerely random,

Qarper

x)

The Beginning Of A New Ending

  All my life I've been failing and falling more than I have succeeded and climbed up. Until when? I won't be able to fall and get up all the time. There will be a time where I'll fall and break my legs so it would be much harder for me to get back up again. Or worse, I'll fall and be paralyzed and will never be able to get back up again.

  From every perspective of my life, be it studies, love, home, friends, even life itself, I've got to change and get back on the right track. I should not let anyone or anything stand in my way to reach my goals in life. Maybe, if I can't get something, instead of grieving and being upset about it, I should just change the path slightly and take a detour to get there. I'd still be reaching my destination, just a little differently than how I originally planned.

  Not everything we want, we will get. Not everything we hate, we'd be able to avoid. If that's God's will, than so be it. He gives us that because he has a good plan in stored for us. The ones that He loves are the ones that He'll test. So, be patient, and God's will, you patience will not be in vain. It would instead be repaid with something much better than what you had before.

  So peeps, if you get hit and fall down, please do not fret. It's normal. Like when we were babies, we couldn't walk straight away after we were born. We had to learn through many steps until we knew how to walk properly, then later on run. We crawled, sat down, stood up, learned to take baby steps and get used it before we were ever able to walk. So don't worry, we all need to take baby steps. 

  Whenever you're down peeps, just remember this. You choose how you want to end up living in the future. Plan ahead and do it now, whatever changes that needs to be done. Get back up slowly, baby steps if you have to. Because why? Slowly, but surely you'll get there.

Yours truly,

Qarper.

=)

Herris Delicious Corner

  Haha, for those of you who loves food, wants a nice, cozy and chilling place to chill at, this is the place for you guys. If you're a student and decide to do your assignments here and need to use the internet, the WiFi here uses Unifi! Awesome speed, haha! xD

  This restaurant has Malay, Arabian, Thai and Western food. Meatballs here are awesome! Frankly speaking, better than this one place I know that's famous for their meatballs heheh. Anyways, this restaurant is located in Damansara Perdana. Very near to Friendscino(previously known as Friendster Cafe). When Friendscino is on your left, just go ahead straight and follow the road for a few more meters and it's on your right. 

This is where I'm updating this post from.

Yours truly,

Qarper

=D

Happy New Year

  Hey peeps, been a long while huh? Yeah, i know. I've been busy and a whole lot of things going on in my mind. Just wanna wish you all happy new year (I know, a very belated one)! Hope you all had blast during new year's eve. As for me, well. Let's just say it was kinda different and not how I expected it would be this year. I felt surrounded by people yet, alone at the same time. Weird huh? Tell me about it, heheh. 

  Nothing would go as planned if you don't follow through thoroughly. Especially if there are other people involved in your plan as well. You may plan to go to hang with a friend, but then you'd say or feel tired and cancel it and it won't happen. You may plan to keep a free time for a certain someone but won't be able to do anything except feel rejected. 

  So, how was your new year's? Good? Great? Wonderful? Awesome? Whatever and however it was, I wish a mostly wonderful year is in store ahead for you! Will update again pretty soon.

Till then,

Happy New Year!

Qarper

=D

Death

  Hey peeps, it's been a long while now huh? Well, today I feel like talking about something different. Instead of the old usual love and life topic, I kinda wanna talk about death today.

  So,whadya think of when the word death comes into your head? Let me tell you what comes to my mind. I'll think about how much longer I have to live, how I'm going to live my life, would I have a happy life till the day i die or not? There are just too many things that'd be running through my mind for me to list down every single one here. But the most important one is, who would be sad or even notice when i seize to exist. 

  Would anyone even care if I died? Would they even be feeling the tinniest slightest of difference in their lives when I'm gone? Well, this is why I think of these things. Right now, i feel like noone would even notice my death. Or at least, cared if I died. I feel as though even the closest ones with me and the ones I love the most wouldn't feel that much of a difference. I don't think I've ever left any sort of impact on anyone's life before.

  In fact, lately, I've been feeling like there's lack of love from those I'm supposed to feel like I'm getting love from. The difference is just great! I just hope that I'd be able to make the best of it. Even if it means doing everything needed to do to make them happy in the future. No point if they're not happy with you now and just treat you like they're just forced to do so.

  Everyone deserves a good happy life. Remember peeps, don't treat people like how you don't like to be treated. Treat them how you'd like to be treated. I follow this because, karma's a bitch and it'll get back right up to you and bite you in the ass. Just time could tell when.

  That'll be all for now heh. God, give me strength to survive this and not effect the others around me unless they really do love and care for me. Please let me be strong to face this!

Love,

Qarper

=D

  

To You, With Love

We met when we were young,

That's when our friendship, our story sprung.

We grew closer and closer everyday,

You were really fun to talk to, that i would say.

You made the first call, and we talked through the night,

It was then I first told myself to not let you out of my sight.

I started to have a crush on you, though it was just for a short while,

I didn't know that it went way ahead to the future to wait, far from me for miles and miles.

Our journey came to a brief halt at one point,

But it continued on as our roads met again and joined.

From then on we were always side by side on the same path,

No matter who or what, they had be careful of our wrath.

We never did hesitate when it came to our friendship,

Until the day arrived for me to give her more than just a mere tip.

A scar on my hand, a message in her inbox and a text chill,

That is what it took for me to let it all out and just spill.

From the signs I got, I never expected to have to bare with pain,

But alas, at the end of the day I found out that my efforts were in vain.

For long I went on not receiving your love,

But at least we were happy, and I could still hear you laugh.

Until there came a day where it was all too much,

For me to carry on my shoulders and be baffled such.

I never regretted not letting you know about the burden I had,

For besides not knowing how to approach, I couldn't bare to see you sad.

Then I decided, that you didn't really need me,

So I left without notice so that you wouldn't see.

It took all my strength at courage to leave,

For more pain and torture was all I received.

Everything you did, be it good or bad,

You may not know this but I knew everything, this is a fact.

A lot of things you thought you could keep away from my knowledge,

But I still knew it all, and it tortured and surrounded me like i was in a cage.

Even if we were to meet up just for awhile,

The fire would again start burning, and i've to leave again for miles and miles.

Until one day, when you reached me, during you were the one i truly missed,

I just had to see you, even just for a moment, I just couldn't resist.

Who would've known that that would be the last,

And I would never again run because it's all in the past.

I still required you about the things that you've done,

Of course you wouldn't admit, and you thought you could run.

I decided to just keep it in, until the time is right,

I've done it before, I'll do it again, till the last bit of my might.

After four years of waiting, the pain is gone and uplifted from my chest,

Finally we're together, and now you've become my one and only princess.

I really do love you with all my heart,

No matter what happens, only death could take it apart.

You're the only one that makes my heart melt and soft,

This I dedicate to you sincerely from me with much love.

Love,

Qarper

<3

Wondering the Wonders of Pondering

  Hey peeps,been a while huh? Well,this time I'm back with a few questions for you to ponder on. Firstly, let's talk about love. I believe I've asked this question in one of my entry before, 'What is love to you'?

  What does it take for you to fall in love for someone? Is it their smile? Their tone of voice? How they touch you? Their attitude? How they treat you? What? Will there actually be a day where the answer for this question can be found? I wonder... How would you know that you've already found 'the one'? What if he/she is 'the one' for you but it's not actually a mutual feeling? Can we still call that particular someone 'our one' or is it just us being in our own world believing only what we want to just so our hearts won't get torn apart? I mean,there is a saying that goes like this,"It takes two to tango", right? So, what exactly is love? Ponder on this for as long as you can and if you can find an answer for it, I'll respect you till death and you'd definitely be very rich for helping others in this one particular common yet foreign to the mind subject.

  Next, what about faith? There are more than one meaning for this word. First, we'll talk about the meaning of faith that talks about your beliefs in something or someone. Do you really need it in your life? Well, from my point of view, we kinda need it. Otherwise, we won't even have faith in ourselves to do anything. You nee to have faith in order for oneself or another person to have at least the slightest bit of foundation of motivation. Even just by knowing that other people have faith in you helps motivate us do something or get something done. 

  Now,what about when people say, or rather ask, "Would you be faithful to me till the end?" You see, that's a different story. It may have a LITTLE similarities but it's not exactly the same. Being faithful to one's partner is a crucial thing in order to keep peace in the relationship. I mean, what's the point of being in one if you're still gonna go find other guys/girls to have fun with? And by having fun, I mean it in every way there is be it some or all the definition towards it. So, what is being faithful then if this still happens to a lot of lovely couples out there? Maybe, the definition and meaning of faithful is as easy as '1,2,3'. The only thing making it complex is the people who doesn't appreciate their partners and misuse the word faithful by turning it into UNfaithful, don't you think? 

  Then, there's trust. What is that? Why is it so easy to break,crush and destroy trust? Yet, building or rebuilding demolished trust takes time? It's like, a structure of a building. It may have a strong foundation but once hit by the giant ball, it'll get destroyed. And to rebuild it, it would take time. Even years maybe. Why must human feelings be complex? (-_-')

  So,how bout it? Would you even dare to ponder on these things after this? Or would you rather just leave it be until the time comes for you to think about it? I leave it to you, whatever you think that suits you. There already are enough problems in your heads so don't let these set of questions intoxicate your minds further. 

  Have fun peeps, may you enjoy using your minds for whatever it is you guys do... 

=)

Yours truly,

Qarper

=D

  

Slowly

Something's been eating me up on the inside,

I dunno what it is but it's something I'm afraid I can no longer hide.

Started from the deepest depths of my heart,

Now it's eating through my whole body,and the impact is hard.

What if it hurts so much that i can no longer lie?

Does that mean that the time has come for 'me to die'?

What if the time comes when this body can no longer survive?

Would i be strong enough to at least have my soul to continue on with life?

What is this foreign sound that keeps playing in my ears?

It sounds so sad that it could break me down to tears.

Where has the happy,cheerful music from my life gone to?

Is there anything,anything at all left for me to do?

Here I'll say I'll keep on trying,

Eventhough I can feel myself tearing apart and dying.

I'll try my best not to give up and do what I have to do,

So that when my time is up,I would've at least left a small impact on you.

Can't say i won't regret with my choice of actions,

But I've to fight,no matter how much it burns.

I'll try my very best to make sure that you would see,

No matter what's in store for me,no matter what's my destiny.

So wish me luck in my conquest,

And hope that in a state of peace is where I'll finally rest.

Again I'll say that no matter how hard is the test,

I promise you that I'll give my all,I'll try my best.

I'll make sure that I'll be the one in triumph,I say this solemnly,

Even if it means I'll get it done,slowly...

Much love and hope,

Qarper

=)

what is..?

love,what is love?

is it just an ordinary feeling or is it more than that?

no soul would get the exact answer on this,

not even the brightest scientist,that i can bet.

hurt,what is hurt?

does it actually make you feel sad or angry,who could tell?

some would choose either,some would choose both,

love could be as beautiful as heaven,and it could also hurt like hell.

heart,what is heart?

is the function of the heart merely to keep the human body alive?

then how would it hurt if words and actions can’t even reach it?

or maybe it’s the source of life,and when broken,it’ll go down into tiny bits...

making love,what and how is it really?

is really the intercourse that happens between two lovers?

if so,why is it also used in infidelity?

if it’s so passionate,why could it also be the cause of flowing tears?

life,what is life?

for this question,i have no comment...

i’ve no answer,know not how to strive,

but this i know,it’s often associated with torment.

hate,what is hate?

is it something we just say or do we really mean it?

for me,it’s not always true of it,i have now found my soulmate,

and it may be the beginning of the bridge where at the end two hearts would meet.

much love,

qarper

=)

Crawling In My Skin

  This feeling I've been feeling,this thing inside me. It's getting worse day by day. I've no idea what to do to make things better or get rid of this feeling. I'd sleep late because of it. I'd not get enough sleep because of it. A lot is being effected because of it.

  What is it? What is this thing crawling in my skin? Is it disposable? Is it possible to get rid of it? If so,how? What am I to do? Tell me,please. I'm sick of feeling like this. It used to be once in a blue moon. But now,it's getting more frequent. Day in day out.

  It's as if a shadow has been casted over me under a dark cloud that follows me everywhere I go. Stop bothering me,stop screwing around with my life! Help!

Need help,

Qarper

Unsure

  There's this feeling that I've been feeling inside,but very unsure of what it really is. It started off as something from deep within. As days passes by,it kept on reaching to get to the surface. It's like peering through the deepest depths of the sea. Even when something is coming up to the surface,you wouldn't know on whether it's something safe or dangerous for you. Until it's too late.

  What is it? Is it loneliness? Could it be emptiness? Sadness maybe? Or is it just something that I should just brush off? I don't know. I wish I do so that I don't have to face this day in,day out! It's killing me from within,very slowly. Can't quite talk it out cause I don't know who exactly to talk to about this feeling and even if I do,I don't know how to explain this foreign feeling. 

  I've felt this way a couple of times before but I can't really relate it to the previous ones. What is this? Get it outta me! Just hope that by writing something I'd feel at least a little better. Hope this works. Otherwise I'd surely crack by midnight. Just like a werewolf,just waiting for it's turn to take over the body,soul and mind of the 'master'.

Unsure Soul,

Qarper

Love..?

  What is it really? Is it really just a feeling? Or is it something much more complex than what people think they know? Majority say that falling in love is a wonderful feeling. Some say that love sucks and love is for suckers. There are even people who call themselves Love Doctors. If they were to be asked a question such as,"what is love?" or "how do you know when you're in love?",would they actually be able to give a straight answer?

  Noone could ever define what love is. Actually,come to think of it,we can't really say that love is undefined. Everyone has their own definition,belief and theory about what love is. Is it really JUST a feeling? If so,than the phrase we humans use that is "I'll love you forever,until the day i die" would just be a false,empty phrase they give to their partners. 

  Just like when you FEEL hungry,you eat something,then you won't FEEL it anymore. So that means,something is bound to happen for you to easily not love anymore if it's JUST a FEELING. Love would NOT be the reason on why you get married and stay with one person for the rest of your lives.

  No,from what I've seen and heard from people,love is much more complex than just a FEELING. I myself am not sure of what love really is or how to define it. Maybe,love is something noone could ever truly understand. But it's just there. Complicated much huh? Yeah,i guess that's just something you have to go through in life. One of the wonders you experience on the road you call life.

  By the end of the day,it's you who makes the decision. It's you who'll be the one deciding on whether or not to take a ride on the love boat,proceed to the ups and downs of the roller coaster,enjoy and take everything you learn as experience and give it a try. That's why the definition is different and depends on each and every single individual. 

  You should not say love sucks or love is the best. You should not try and discourage your friends to love because doesn't mean you went through a rough time,they would end up like that as well. No love story is the same,be it tragic or breath takingly beautiful.

Just remember this quote that I'd learned from a very close person in my life. "Love,can be as beautiful as Heaven. But it could also hurt like Hell."

  So go on,take a leap of faith and give it a go. If it ends in a shipwreck,than it wasn't meant to be. Find another one to experience the ride with. You wouldn't know if you don't try right? Then you'll have your own definition and experience to answer when give such questions. Hope you'll have a great ride on you adventure and hope that you won't screw it up.

Sincerely,

Qarper 

=)

No Use Anymore

A night in the park,

A ride in the car,

A drive in the neighborhood,

That was the start of the sparks.

Met through a friend,

Chilled with the gang,

Talked,laughed and cuddled,

Like there was no end.

Cried,laugh,loved and danced,

All this was shared by you and me.

Special and unforgettable memories,

When others look,they were drowned by what the call envy.

We had ups and downs,smooth and hard times,

Had the ride going for a couple of years.

Then came a time where you shattered my soul,

And all you gave me was not smiles,but tears.

Broken,crumbled,what a disastrous experience,

Still I tried to forgive and forget.

Sorry was heard a trillion times,

Promises were made but none were kept.

Alas,I've grown somewhat immune,

My heart became hard,no more soft for your tune.

As much as you are sorry for being the reason my heart is sore,

Everything we had,the words you say,the things you've done and this soul that you tore,

Is now of no use anymore.